my name is bucky

james buchanan barnes

 intro  independent, selective and private roleplay blog for james buchanan 'bucky' barnes from the mcu. canon divergent. iconless. mutuals only. please read rules before interacting. credits in carrd or posts, all other graphics made by me. 21+. personal blogs do not interact.

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❝ The 107th. Sergeant James Barnes, shipping out for England first thing tomorrow. ❞

 about  Eldest son of four, Bucky grew up in Brooklyn with his younger sisters and best friend, Steve Rogers. Living a comfortable life, he was drafted to fight in World War II. Captured as a POW, he was rescued by Steve after he received the super soldier serum, joining him to create an elite unit called the Howling Commandos. After Bucky fell from a train in the Alps, he's assumed dead. Instead, he was taken by HYDRA and moulded into the ultimate weapon: the Winter Soldier.

IMPORTANT NOTES.

BASICS.

  NAME    James Buchanan Barnes  NICKNAME/ALIAS    Bucky, Buck, Sergeant Barnes, Winter Soldier, White Wolf  AGE    106  DATE OF BIRTH    March 10 1917  GENDER & PRONOUNS    cis man, he/him  ORIENTATION    gay  RACE    human / super soldier  NATIONALITY    american

ADDITIONAL.

  NEURODIVERGENCES & DISORDERS   
- PTSD
- Anxiety
- Depression
- Panic disorder  DISABILITIES/CHRONIC ILLNESSES   
- Amputated left arm
- Internal bone and muscle damage to left shoulder and surrounding area
- Insomnia

BACKGROUND.

  PARENTS   
- Winifred Barnes
- George Barnes  SIBLINGS   
- Rebecca Anne 'Becca' Barnes
- Louise Elizabeth 'Lula' Barnes
- Katherine Miriam ‘Kitty’ Barnes  RELIGION   
- Jewish  SIGNIFICANT OTHER   
- verse dependent  OTHERS   
- Steve Rogers (best friend)
- Sam Wilson (friend)  PETS    Alpine (cat)  OCCUPATION    Soldier/Ex-assassin/Hero  HOMETOWN    Brooklyn, NY, NY, USA  CURRENT RESIDENCE    Brooklyn, NY, NY, USA  LANGUAGES    English, Yiddish, Russian, German, French, Xhosa, many others programmed into him by Hydra  ACCENT    Brooklyn, although he can reliably put on many different accents depending on what the situation requires

 marksman. 
Bucky was an incredibly accurate shot even before the serum was able to influence his reflexes. During the war, Col. Philips noted that Bucky's long range scope accuracy was ninety percent. after the serum, he is an inhumanly good shot, from great distances and in less than optimal conditions.

 strength. 
After receiving Zola's serum, Bucky's strength is greatly increased. Many of his abilities mirror Steve Rogers', this one included. He is able to lift incredibly heavy loads with little effort. Additionally, his prosthetics are able to bear intense weights.

 healing factor. 
Another side effect of the serum, thanks to his increased metabolism, wounds heal at least four times faster than usual. This healing factor also means he is unaffected by caffeine, alcohol and many other drugs. However, even his healing factor can't overcome some trauma, leading to scars like those around his left arm.

 reflexes. 
Bucky was always quick to react to things, but this was another thing enhanced by the serum he received. Able to catch Steve's shield at speed, as well as dodge various projectiles like grenades and knives.

 speed. 
Bucky is able to keep up and sometimes overpass cars on ordinary streets, as well as keep pace with Steve. He is able to match most enhanced individuals.

 agility. 
He's able to jump great distances and heights with ease, the likes of across rooftops and over moving vehicles.

 stamina. 
The serum enhanced Bucky's stamina, but the conditioning from HYDRA had a hand in it as well. When making him into the winter soldier, his handlers would train him to ignore the signals from his body to stop. Ultimately, he can go until he is physically unable to, but is trying to unlearn this.

 durability. 
Thanks to the serum, Bucky's bones and skin are more resistant to damage. As well as surviving his fall from the train, he's able to jump from great heights with no ill effects. He's also able to withstand blows that would otherwise injure or kill non-enhanced humans. However even this has a limit: some of the experiements HYDRA put him through have left permanent scars.

 longevity. 
Although many might assume Bucky's lack of aging was purely down to being put into cryostasis between missions, this isn't entirely the case. Like Steve, his cells don't break down at the same speed as someone without the serum, meaning he will live longer than the average human, even without cryo.

 master assassin. 
Brutally trained until he was the best of the best, Bucky can perform assassinations without a single piece of evidence that could trace them back to him, unless the mission called for it as a warning.

 martial arts. 
Before the war, Bucky was a three time welterweight boxing champion. However HYDRA forced him to learn many more skills. He employs mixed martial arts that include elements of systema, karate, boxing, muay Thai, Krav Maga, and kali.

 weapons handling. 
Bucky has a vast knowledge of many different weapons, but mainly deals in guns and knives. However he is also proficient with Steve's shield, having helped him train with it during the war.

 tactician. 
Always very bright, Bucky's natural aptitude for tactics served him well as a sergeant during the war and as Steve's second in command of the Howling Commandos. He was also able to undertake missions for HYDRA mostly unaccompanied, as well as staying hidden for two years before Zemo's attack on the UN.

 vehicles. 
Growing up the son of a mechanic, Bucky knew how to drive from an early age, both cars and motorbikes. HYDRA trains him in yet more, allowing him to pilot various planes and helicopters, even quinjets.

 multilingualism. 
As a child, Bucky grew up speaking Yiddish and English at home, as well as learning Hebrew. While at war, he picked up French and German with little trouble, as well as a little Russian. HYDRA taught him dozens of other languages, allowing him to slip into many countries. He also learned Xhosa while in Wakanda.

 distinguishing features. 
One of the first things people tend to notice about Bucky is either his habit of always wearing gloves, his prosthetic arm or his lackthereof. Depending on his comfort levels, he'll hide the prosthetic, or go out with it plainly visible. However, some days he decides to forego it altogether. He also moves with surprising grace for his size, able to move silently through spaces that make that seem impossible. While he cuts his hair for his return to the US, trying to look the part of Howling Commando Bucky Barnes, he does eventually grow it back out again, until it falls down past his shoulders.

 scars. 
The serum would mean that ordinarily, all injuries would heal with no scarring. However, there is some damage even the serum can't fix, and Bucky's body is a map of it. The most obvious of this is the intense scarring around the site of his prosthetic. The repeated trauma of attaching the metal arm has left him with many marks. There was five distinct once across his chest, from his initial attempts to rid himself of the arm. Additionally, his skin is littered with marks from missions, torture, experiments — he can't account for most of them.

 winifred barnes. 
Bucky's mother. For the first two years of his life, it was just the two of them, as his father had been called up to fight in the Great War. Quick-witted and kind, Winnie Barnes could be counted on for anything. As he grew up, she ensured Bucky had everything he needed to succeed. She became close friends with Sarah Rogers, just as their sons did.

 george barnes. 
Bucky's father. George missed many of his son's firsts, away fighting as he was, but he did his best to make up for it when he came back. A doting father, he was always a solid presence in Bucky's world. Knowing Steve had lost his own father young, George also did his best to include him just as much as bucky.

 barnes sisters. 
Becca, Lula and Kitty make up the rest of the Barnes siblings, and Bucky absolutely adored them. Like all siblings, they had their spats, but he was always there to braid their hair, help with their homework or teach them to dance. They looked up to their big brother, and also accepted Steve as one of their own.

 steve rogers. 
Meeting when Bucky was eight and Steve just turned seven, neither boy knew what they would eventually mean to the other. Together through thick and thin, it was a rare day to see one without the other. There is nothing Bucky won't do for Steve.

 sarah rogers. 
Single mother to Steve, Sarah was someone Bucky often looked up to. Following the death of her husband, Joseph, Sarah did the best she could with what she had. Working as a nurse, she taught Bucky what she could so that he could better help Steve. When she died of TB, Bucky's grief was almost a match for Steve's.

 howling commandos. 
Lead by Steve following their escape from Hydra's imprisonment, the Howlies are an elite team. Lead by Captain Rogers and his second, Sergeant Barnes, they consist of Timothy 'Dum Dum' Dugan, Jim Morita, James Montgomery 'Monty' Falsworth, Gabe Jones and Jacques 'Frenchie' Dernier.

 howard stark. 
Founder of Stark Industries, Bucky first encountered Howard Stark by attending Stark Expo before shipping out in 1943. Later, he would learn the role Howard played in Steve getting the serum, and work with him through the SSR. In 1991, the Winter Soldier was sent to kill Howard and his wife, Maria.

 peggy carter. 
Margaret 'Peggy' Carter was an agent with the SSR, and met Steve before he received the serum. Bucky met her following the rescue from HYDRA, and never could quite decide how he felt about her. He was happy to see someone else appreciating Steve the way he did, though.

 ssr. 
The Strategic Scientific Reserve. This branch was a cross-government initiative to be an Allied answer to HYDRA. The SSR hired Dr Erskine to allow him to finally perfect his super soldier serum. Eventually the SSR was transformed into SHIELD.

 armin zola. 
HYDRA's top scientist and the man who kicked off the creation of the Winter Soldier. In the Krausberg facility in Austria, he injected Bucky with the first dose of his own version of the super soldier serum, allowing him to eventually survive his fall from the train in the Alps.

 lukin. 
Little is known about General Lukin, other than that he was one of the Winter Soldier's original handlers. He was the one responsible for implementing the use of trigger phrases in the soldier to make him easier to control.

 karpov. 
Colonel Karpov was the Winter Soldier's handler in the 1990s. He was responsible for sending the Soldier out to kill the Starks and retrieve the serum they were transporting. Additionally, he oversaw administering the serum to the five operatives designed to replace the Winter Soldier.

 red room. 
The purpose of the Red Room was to create the perfect assassins, using little girls as the basis of their plans. They treated these children brutally, using torture, brainwashing and manipulation to reach their goals. For a period of time they took control of the Winter Soldier to use him in training their Black Widows.

 brock rumlow. 
A member of Strike Team Alpha, Brock Rumlow was able to infiltrate SHIELD to the extent that he was trusted by both Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanov. However, he was also a handler for the Winter Soldier and showed his true colours during Project Insight. He was killed in Lagos while using the alias Crossbones.

 alexander pierce. 
A US senator and also one of the handlers for the Winter Soldier. High up in Hyrda and controling both SHIELD and the World Security Council. Manipulative and cruel, Pierce was eventually killed during the fight against Project Insight.

 natasha romanov. 
Trained in the Red Room as a Black Widow, Natasha eventually defected to the United States to work for SHIELD and joined the Avengers. When SHIELD was revealed to have been infested with HYDRA, Natasha dumped all of their files online. She was briefly trained by the Winter Soldier as a child, and had one of the few encounters with him that did not end in death.

 sam wilson. 
Sam was a pararescue with the US Air Force. Once home, he worked for the VA, helping other vets adjust to live away from combat as a counsellor. After meeting Steve Rogers, Sam eventually joined him to help stop Project Insight. He also joined the Avengers and eventually fought against the Accords. He helped Steve in his search for Bucky.

 team cap. 
Made up of Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes, Sam Wilson, Wanda Maximoff, Clint Barton and Scott Lang, they opposed the Sokovia Accords and fought to try and stop Zemo from making use of the five other Winter Soldiers. Sam, Clint, Wanda and Scott were held in the Raft for a time before being broken out by Steve. They also received help from Sharon Carter.

 team iron man. 
Made up of Tony Stark, James Rhodes, Natasha Romanoff, Peter Parker, Vision and T'Challa. They agreed with or signed the Sokovia Accords and wanted to bring Bucky in for the bombing of the UN, despite his innocence. Natasha eventually changed her alliegence to help Steve and Bucky escape the airport to get to Siberia.

 zemo. 
Baron Helmut Zemo was the leader of an elite team in the Sokovian Armed Forces. During the battle against Ulton, his wife, son and father were killed. Seeking revenge on the Avengers, he framed the Winter Soldier for a terrorist attack on the UN, and showed Tony Stark the footage of the assassination of his parents, leading to his attempts to kill Bucky. Zemo was eventually arrested by T'Challa and put in prison.

 hydra/shield. 
SHIELD, or the Strategic Homeland Intervention, Enforcement and Logistics Division, grew from the SSR under Howard Stark and Peggy Carter. Although meant to protect people, SHIELD also employed the likes of Armin Zola and allowed HYDRA to grow within their ranks. Eventually Alexander Pierce was at their head and ready to launch Project Insight. Only the actions of Steve, Natasha, Sam and many still loyal SHIELD agents stopped HYDRA.

 alpine. 
Following his return home, and finding himself a bit listless, Bucky finally indulged a childhood dream of having a pet. Alpine is an all-white cat he adopted and now dotes on. She is definitely the queen of their house, and knows it. Very affectionate with Bucky, she can often be found on him when he's home.

 ed kirby. 
It took a few attempts for Bucky to find a therapist that worked for him. But after those false starts, he found Ed, a man so opposite to what he expected. His office is light, open and filled to the brim with soft things and distractions. He pushes Bucky, but also supports him in all things. He was integral to Bucky's integration to the US.

 wakandans. 
Being granted asylum in Wakanda following the fight in Siberia, Bucky spent some months in crostasis while they worked on how to remove the trigger words from his head. T'Challa, his sister Shuri, and Ayo of the Dora Milaje were his closest contacts, and some of the first people Bucky counted as friends since escaping HYDRA. They went above and beyond for him, and he'll always be grateful.

 blessed be the boys time can't capture. 
canon.
Eldest of four children, Bucky's home is loud and chaotic and loving, and he's happy. But sometimes he needs the quiet of the Rogers' place, spending almost as much time there as he does in his family's home. And when Mrs Rogers passes away, he can't very well leave his best friend on his own.

 soldier keep on marching on. 
canon.
He'd acted as if it would disappear if he just ignored it. The war. But then those damn draft papers arrive. And he lies to Steve, tells him he enlisted, unable to reveal that for all the army kept rejecting him, they demanded Bucky. And it turns out he's a good soldier, an even better shot. And for a bit there, he thinks he has a chance of making it back home, until Hydra captures him.

 i will never be forgotten with you by my side 
canon.
He should be happy. He should be furious. Steve was meant to be safe at home in Brooklyn, but here he was, almost a foot taller, suddenly broader than Bucky, and throwing himself into the line of fire. So, even though a medical discharge is offered, Bucky takes up his place as Steve's second. It's what leads to him being on a train. Falling down a ravine. Presumed dead.

 you're part of a machine you are not a human being. 
canon.
He doesn't know who he is. He doesn't care. He is not supposed to care. And so he doesn't. They took his arm and gave him a new one, and a new one, and a new one. The took his memories and replace them with orders and missions and death. Cold and murder. Murder and cold. Until the man on the bridge says a name and suddenly he is a person.

 and i've lost who i am. 
canon.
The man on the bridge – Steve, his name was Steve – had given him a name. Bucky. Bucky Barnes shared his face, but the memories? They were harder. The longer he stays away from the machine, the chair, the cold, the more fragments return, until he has a ratty quilt for a memory. Holes and patches, but solid. He feels like a person for the first time in a long time. He's writing down his memories, just in case anyone tries to steal them again. And he's doing okay. Until someone frames him as a terrorist.

 the blood on my hands scares me to death. 
canon.
Steve has found him and they're on the run again. The book is in the hands of a man who knows how to use it, and that is terrifying. Steve has turned against his team, his friends, and the guilt is crushing, it's too much. And then they're fighting Howard's kid, and his arm is gone again, but he remembers it this time. His mind is not his own and so it's best for everyone if he goes under again. At least for a while.

 i can't stop now i know who i am. 
canon.
The trigger words are gone, but they still want Bucky to fight. And he will. Freedom is intoxicating. Freedom is terrifying. No one can use that book to control his mind, not anymore. But the peace he had wanted did not come. Instead, he is presented with a new arm and a gun. Where's the fight?

 pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light. 
canon divergent. main verse.
Following Steve’s retirement from Captain America, Bucky has a life of his own to lead. After being exonerated, finding an excellent therapist, adopting a cat and settling down in his old stomping grounds of Brooklyn, he finally gets to decide for himself what he wants to do with his life. And that is helping people.

 come morning light you and i'll be safe & sound. 
au.
Rumours reach the US that one of the Howling Commandos is being held by enemy forces, and a rescue mission is undertaken shortly after the end of the war. HYDRA had already started its process to create their operative under the Winter Soldier project, but they don't get far and Bucky gets to go home. And once there, he takes up the fight to find Steve.

 they pick up their hearts and avenge defeat. 
au.
Several months after the fall of the helicarriers, and with his memories returning, Bucky surrenders to Steve. After some intense healing, an exoneration, and team building, eventually he is invited to join the Avengers.

 you'll come back when they call you. 
au.
After his fall from the train, Bucky is found by a group of Soviet soldiers. His wounds are cleared and he's placed in cryo, awaiting the return of Dr Zola to continue his project. However, the doctor never returns, and eventually the cryostasis chamber is forgotten. Until decades later when a team of urban explorers find it and call it in. After his fall in 1945, he wakes up in 2010. A year later, they find Captain America in the Arctic.

 soon you’ll be home with me once upon a december. 
au.
Crown Prince James is the youngest of four children, often found trailing after his older sisters. But his life is a happy one, until his father is deposed and his family slaughtered. Later, a little boy is found with no memory of who he is or where he came from. Only that his name is Bucky, and he has a ring bearing the name of Paris — his only clue as to where his family might be.

 they may die but in us they live. 
au. tlou based.
The world has gone to shit. With the cordyceps fungus taking rational human beings and turning them into monsters, death is around every corner and very few places in the world can be considered as safe.

 in the deep chambers of the sea they dwell. 
au. merman.
Bucky is a creature of the sea — born in the depths, he finds himself fascinated by the world above, even if its dangerous.

you found a secret!

 take me back to the night we met. 
pre-fatws. by request.
He moves home, which means Brooklyn to anyone who has a passing knowledge of him. Of course, home has never been a place to Bucky, but people. Only his people are all gone, dead or dying or gone. So he moves to a place he calls home, after getting his pardon. He starts seeing a therapist. He follows her instructions, kinda. He does not mention the nightmares. Life goes on.

 got nothing left to live for got no reason yet to die. 
fatws. by request.
Sam and Bucky work together to stop some bad guys from hurting innocent people. The usual. He's attending his court mandated therapy. He's making amends (or trying). He's ignoring Sam, because Sam reminds him too much of Steve, and Sam gave away the shield. It's ridiculous to feel attached to a hunk of metal, but when it's all you have left of the only family you've ever known? Well. But he also won't let Sam do this alone, because Sam is also all he has left of Steve, and it was what Steve would have wanted. He comes out of the experience with a new friend, a true friend, and a plan on how to make amends. Actual ones this time.

 let mercy come and wash away what i've done. 
post-fatws. by request.
The big things – saving people, fighting – come easy. He's been doing it for close on ninety years. Being a person is harder. But he's working on it, okay? He finds a new therapist, one who he finds it easier to actually talk to, not just the one the government decided he should have. He goes out, does things. Gets himself a cat, calls her Alpine. He's functioning. He's okay.

  the night war: 60th anniversary edition.   by praximeter.In 1947, Master Sergeant James B. Barnes's surviving field journals were posthumously published as the classic war memoir The Night War. Now a high school history classroom mainstay and required reading at West Point, this highly anticipated 60th Anniversary Edition presents the original, unedited text alongside detailed historical notes that provide important context to the extraordinary wartime heroics of Captain America and the Howling Commandos.Barnes, James B. The Night War: The Wartime Memoirs of a Howling Commando. Ed. Harold Miller. 60th Anniversary ed. New York: HarperCollins, 2005. Print.

  the thirteen letters.   by dropdeaddream & WhatAreFearswomb to tomb, sweetheart.Part of the not easily conquered series.